Friday, August 31, 2018

8.31.18

-
i dream of you
chained angel
but fight the girl
in your skined
mask
tear my bond
of derrailed
melancholy
deliver my chaos
through
the leather holes
break the morning
in our landless
station
drink the thirst
of my burning
song
-
if i was a man
i would tell
you
the vilest
things
night and
day
and in
your
sleep
and wake
you up
in struggle
sweetest pain
provoque you
in places of
decorum
ruin you
bit by bit
your tireless
days
of legs toghether
and winter sweats
and midnight
tremors
i would hold
your heart
and grab
your ass
and dive
in your modesty
everywhere
stand
lay
and sit
togheter
if i was your lover
love
i would be
your best man
too
fearless critique
draw your tears
and tangy
hiss
would i wear your
rags out
and you
wouldnt i
crawl little
princess
naked
down the
stairs
and impregnate
the grass
of your million
running pink
bastards
i would
yeah
wear you
like a
quilt
and roll on you
under you
if i was yours
but im indeed
my dear
a thought
an effort
to please you
im your echo
my child
finish your
chocolate
unzip the music
that brought us
here
be the man
and for her sake
feed the
woman
uderneath
...

i love you in a silent
love
a little game
you invented
and never knew
was a game
i dont know
when i got
playing
but im
waiting for your turn
is it maybe that
you stopped playing
youve outgrown
our little fun
but im willing to
bare our cruelty
to tolerate a
pinch
bleed a little
and kneel
for all i care
will you then play?
will you?
....
chain me
to the foot of this root
you're pulling off
the ground
ill be a flower
disguised
ill plant your seed
around me
ill be your
weed
let me be
your garden
come back to
me
and be my
tree
...

my heart is a grumbling
balloon
full of firework
gunpowder
goo
glitter
liquor
some pungent
perfume
thick as oil
and the oil is messy
too
there is water
somewhere
some poison ivy
antidote
nail polish
baby powder
and a bit of
magic
yes, there is love & hate
passion & idle
there are memories
scolded everywhere
and god, are there
tears...
fresh and dry
there is forgiveness
in that heart cus
i insist
there is a heart
and yes
at the very least
a thin letal
thread of
blood

kkk

im leavig
arriving my
departure
landing
stay?
return.
forget
long
miss
ake
stall
.
numb
heart
callous
love
sleep
tiredness
hate
remorse
regret
fever
death
dust
dust
rain
sprout
eye
vision
love
again
return
grow
remember
stay.
....

do i love you?
no.
i know love
when i loved you
when i let you go
when i waited
so long
i will wait again
and learn
and decide
is this love?
does it matter
if it is destiny?
i will do
so much
maybe nothing
but i know better
i will live
till it is time
i know i will know
then
i know
my mission
now.
and i will tear
that head
down.

....

tell me
love
i wont listen
there is a man
home
that is wise
like
time
and sincere
like
an eye
and it is
mine
i came back
once
as i will be back
open it
open the gate
and wait
.

little angel
i know of you
before myself
i was dust
a doll
giggling with
god in a desert
and so much love
around
the twirls of my
dress.
i knew then
i was alive
and opened my eyes
to a dream of my
little boy.

xxx

the spirits asked me
to wait
to give time time
everythig will be
rendered
resolved
not to fear
not to wonder
not to rush
the course of
faith
you hurt
to death
a little less
every time
but i cant let
go
i will desperately
wait
and fear
and love you
till the end.

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